ABHAY SARAWGI

My Bengal Fascination ( Part I)

2011-08-07T10:08:00.001-07:00

July 18th,2011

Let me put straight as this , the only way I could ever understand Calcutta is that it is essentially Bengali dominated.As i grew older with the city I started taking pride of the city being called a Bengali Dominated or a city of Bengali.It hardly mattered me though as I started enjoying every bit of it.Morsoever,being personally very close to a select of Bengali Community here in Calcutta.I started loving the entire Bengali driven Calcutta.

I find the city so strange inspite of having everything,it has that simplicity quotient attached to it wherein every sect of the society can survive a particular lifestyle.

Calcutta certainly is not meant for everyone.Its just meant for people who have a diferent..i dont know the word but certainly Not everyone.People living in Delhi would say its too boring,not lively and maybe Mumbai says its not fast.But I love it the way it is..

I had dreamt from the days as a student at Xavier’s Calcutta is that this is the place I truely belong to.It has that catch for me which no place in India has tried to press upon me in anyway.The culture yet modern yet disciplined.The urge in people towards value of Education and Sports.The influence and penetration of Music be it the local Ravindra Sangeet.It has the flavor which has been missing from my life always.

I remember the time I stepped into college on 30th August,2004.A small town boy who didn;t know the world or hadn;t seen what a metro life would be,came to a town with lots of ambitions and courage.i knew right from the first day that I wanted to stay fixed in the world of business and make myself big in that.I still am fighting with myself to prove myself exactly this..

TISCO- COAL MINE..Exploring Minerals

2010-01-20T00:21:00.001-08:00

Lets do it !! A Romance with Mining Industry

2010-01-20T00:13:00.001-08:00

It simply fascinates me to the core to hear about Mines.They are adorable pieces of Almighty’s creation.I simply find my self romancing with them.After my trip got overt I have just been travelling to all kinds of mining blocks be it Coal,Limestone or Iron-ore..thee thought of owning one of them really puts me back on track.It gives me some courage to start my life again and just go for it in a huge way.Believe me I am trying my best to go for it in a very strong and aggressive manner but I simply can’t get over Government and its so strict water tight procedures and implications.

Why can’t India get over its control policies and reckless approvals??Why are we all so much dependent on Bureaucracy and corridors of powers to get such high level clearances??When is India gonna say you have the will and the capacity so just go ahead..n bla bla..sorry for these words,they are just kind of frustrations that needs to be vent in some platform so I just did that.

But I am getting stronger and politically more connected to be on some driving seat or maybe some edge over the rest..called my competitors..but I need Mining Lease to say that I did it !!

It take lots of pains to get such approvals and clearances which my dream company is even finding it very difficult to crack through in spite of the fact of being at the epitome of Steel..Arcelor Mittal..I keep on thinking if they are not being able to get through its really difficult but still somebody is to do it so its gotta be me who brakes the line and file of officers and gets it.

I did things which I never thought of !! Ever indebted to Almighty for such a wonderful chance !!

2010-01-19T09:25:00.001-08:00

DAY-2(25^th December,2009)

It wasn’t over there then it was transfers to the station wherein I performed my first ever biggest event of my lifetime.Mom, dad my friends are you listening I slept in the Platform with cardboard boxes under me for couple of hours.I realised it was such a cool thing to do,once a person is ready to give away his space and austerity he can outlive the greatest fears of his life.It has been among the greatest experience so far in my life which I can boost about during my entire life.I feel so strange that the dreams I have been chasing are so futile and the opportunity that awaits me requires a lifetime contribution to make it happen.I have to make a change-maybe a change in the mindset of human Psychology,in the attitude and attributes of human nature.The urge and the rush of adrenaline in my body is irresistible and wants to contribute and make my name embedded in Golden letters which I will.I am trapped in between with the power and capacity to prove my point beyond doubt that we can and we will.

Tata Jagriti Yatra ~ A strange Journey to discover Myself..Brief Moments

2010-01-19T09:23:00.001-08:00

DAY- 1 (24^th December,2009)

It was stated to be a unique experience wherein things where just set in pace from people coming from across India,be it small towns or larger cities where I could find the maximum from South India(though one may refute it) ,there were some overseas friends as well from California to Australia.The beginning was just the registration and briefing of the groups made by the core team.It was followed us with core teams presentation about the first yatra undertook in the year 1997 known as Azad Bharat Yatra which earmarked the completion of 50 years of Indian Independence and explore what transformation that has happened to India during this 50 years.The next journey commenced in the year 2008 and 2009 is what I was there to witness and write about it.Then there were the speeches of the efforts and little boring stuff which was irking me that AM I wasting My time here ??Then a good speech by Mr.Gopalkrishnan,ED (Tata Sons) was inspiring enough to tell us what things will be in coming years and as usual TATA’s saga of support to the nation and there social measures.But the best part of the evening was THE DABAWALS’s.Mr.Tiwary represented the DABAWALA fraternity and believe me his words and advices were very inspiring and have caught everyone’s inspiration in some way.He emphasised on the fact that the recognition he has got was from Prince Charles visit to India wherein he wanted to meet them and talk about there development and the procedure adapted for such successful implementation of there DABAWALA concept.He emphasised on the fact that one should do work as per his heart,never hire people who are very qualified and inspire,motivate people to give there best efforts to reach there destinations.

A Strange Journey I Applied for which eventually turned out to be Fanfreakintastic !!

2010-01-19T09:19:00.001-08:00

I have been working seriously for the last full 2009 and putting my best endeavours to reach the prescribed target and goals for the calendar year 2009.I still remember very blatantly the day I was in Dhanbad for m order booking and meetings with DECO(Dhansar Engineering),one of the pioneers in Outsourcing or one may say Contract Mining.I read a strange article in THE TELEGRAPH about TATA JAGRITI YATRA and found it quite impressive.In spite of the fact I was running late for work and my colleague was at the Hotel beside me I finished the application form in a splash and submitted the same .It did came to my mind whether such journeys actually make any difference or is it just a fun trip,for which my age has actually crossed.The story didn’t end there,I was determined to be part of it and see myself as the largest and brightest Entrepreneur and this could well be the stepping stone to see myself beyond a particular state and see the entire nation as a whole.

I remain to be very optimistic about my Journey which will be a lifetime achievement of travelling very extensively throughout India and see the true India.I have always believed and have had various discussions that True India lies in Rural India,any person who is able to trap and reach to the masses will definitely be the True Hero of India. With great conviction I can say tomorrow belongs to Rural India.You talk about the new budding entrepreneurs like SKS Microfinance or recent speeches made by Mukesh Ambani,they have made strong conviction about realising the power of Rural Masses and the potential they carry.So maybe tomorrow is all about me and the ideas I can capture and see the rural masses and the dreams of True India –Rural India

A Brief State ~When do I think the battle Is WON ??

2010-01-19T09:16:00.001-08:00

I am pretty much stuck in life and really don’t know what to do and what not to do so its actually a very difficult situation I am going through at the moment ..dilemma as I can say it .Its just some factors which are usually going beside my powers to think and change the course so quite difficult you can understand that ..Its a mad world where things are not under your control the dependence is huge on some individuals which is detrimental and not being looked forward by me properly and it just brings pains because you can’t decide what to do and what not to do .This is actually a very difficult position in humans life where have and have-not occupies your major chunk of your thinking where things don’t go according to your plans and the problem creator are insiders rather than outsiders .It really pisses me and disappoints me about everything around that is happening where things are not taken properly and things rarely are under your prerogative .Words itself are pretty difficult so just think about how difficult is it to implement life in such a way.God give me powers so that I can defy the orthodoxy that is being associated with many things around and look forward in a meaningful way in order to make a decentralised system where every one enjoys according to the labour put into his pursuit and enjoys according to his hard work nobody gets a free ride and nobody takes any one for granted.

What happens ,happens for good.But the goodness that is associated with certain things are not known properly and it keeps me in dilemma about what next is going to happen.It keeps me on his feet about what next is going to happen and it always keeps me on tender hooks.

Me Against Myself

2010-01-19T09:14:00.001-08:00

I find myself conflicting with myself all the time by the way I have to react at various circumstances.I am on the verge of fighting myself all the time about the way to choose and means to adopt in order to stay into the race which is pretty difficult all the time.The varied options available and the selection between all odds make it more difficult in order to keep pace with the situation.I have travelled across India and am quite aware from where to start my affairs.But it’s a fight which is against myself all the time on the route to adopt to reach where I want to be.

What the hell was I doing for a year !!

2010-01-19T09:08:00.001-08:00

Hey I am extremely sorry for not updating everyone about my life for the past year,though I have compiled them in the best manner possible but there has been some astonishing happenings in my life which I so called would prefer it to be known to few(who already know)individuals who hold realm to my life and of utmost important to me.I have been fighting hard with everyone to keep myself alive and I have managed it and am still doing it.Its been a long battle where I am trying to fight it out and in some ways I am still doing so.My work has been doing well but slow and little bit boring at times.I have travelled across countries and searched and re-searched many ideals and tried plotting for and against to save my skin.Acted foolishly and more foolishly,cut long story short been carried away….most of the times.Now,I think I would be more at my wits end and will give you a brief insights about my troubled though meaningful life.

May 2009 fill my life with what all I have been waiting for

2009-01-04T19:33:00.000-08:00

Man is made of all kinds of dreams and dreams cover a majority portion of human's life.The year 2009 is of atmost importance in my life because this year has to decide what my future will hold and how am I gonna make my dreams come towards more reality.Its my dreams and it is me who is gonna make real and make my critics wrong about everything .

An Alarming Situation

2008-09-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

I find such an alarming situation that has suddenly come to the fore that it seems really difficult to get out of it at all.Its been calling for much skills than I ever had and even that seems to be just not enough in order to see through the situation.I am trying my best to have that positive framework of mind where things are happening for good but something or the other is just making me very shaky about the whole episodes erupting from time to time.I am under that tremendous pressure from all sides that my mind is boggling all the time about such matters.Its just tells me so strongly about the double standards that is being adopted on the expense of something much more dearer and future standing that it just puts me into that strange notion of the importance of tomorrow.My future seems to be on the darker side but I am strong,courageous and hopeful that some hard steps are only going to make things right for all the time.I am just learning and unlearning various facets of life which was so urgent for me to know and hold onto myself for that future where things are going to be ever more competitive and ever challenging.I am just holding onto my breath and just trying to stay calm and composing my nerves to stay ever stable and relaxed inspite of it being the most difficult thing to do at this particular instance.

Haunting Old Days

2008-09-19T05:10:00.001-07:00

I am lost in my imaginative old thoughts which just gives me those mirror images of days that I have left far behind in my life.It gives me those nostalgia of things that have left my mind baffled and secluded from those fond memories which I cherished the most in my life.I feel perplexed with what I have gained and lost in my life and what it signifies and means to me.Arethey just some another day of my life which I will no longer will be able to get back in my life or are they something that have ended and will keep on haunting me forever inmy life.These are the strange questions that need to be answered with utmost priority.I feel shattered at times that I could make more out of it but have somehow manage to screw myself with not getting themost out of life.

I DREAM OF GENIE

2008-09-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

It goes that way in my life where I just dream of a miracle to come by and change my entire life and the way it has to move.I am just leading a life which is just somewhat uncertain and has no destination.Its just a genie which can get me what I want and get things in order of what I have always dreamt of.Its really such a difficult thing to do is to keep ones nerve intact in order so that things really progresses very smoothly.I wish I could have a genie in myself who could have the ability to transform things in my life and get me that inspiration where I could just get one wish fulfilled : If you give your best you get what you want,The powers is all yours.I am quiet aware that everyone has been made for some fixed purpose and we are just fufiling god's creation and every one of us has an imporatnt part to play but I feel that inner urge that, I have been made in order to make or perform some major actions as part of god's creation.I just dream of that genie where God could just tell me what is the role Am I desired of as part of his creation.

An Impossible Dream

2008-08-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

Everyday goes unnoticed giving me those nervous jitters,it feels as though yet another day has passed which started just few seconds back.My persuasion of my dreams seems to give no respite as it eludes me,I feel every second of my life whether am I chasing an Impossible Dream.A dream that takes so much from my soul,so much commitment but gives me no feeling of accomplishment.I am on my toes for some reason but that reason gives a more larger picture than What my dreams have potrayed it.But,that is the way it goes I guess about-MY Impossible Dream.Yeah,now I am slowly starting to live by it and giving my continuous persuasion and giving that extra stride which I was keeping for the moment.Every second is a moment for Impossible Dream.Lets chase it ,lets do it and reach what my Impossible Dream Is.

Open The Doors !! Let me see the Staiway

2008-07-31T07:12:00.000-07:00

Everytime when I feel lil lonely,I have an urge in me to discover what is underneath.My plans ,my destiny eludes me and I feel helpless at times with my incapacity to open the doors.What is meant for me,till what level I will reach all just escapes my haunted thoughts.I feel meaningless at times and more exactly my perception doesn hold good.I am wasting that impassionate drive in me to revolutionise the way things are seen but what worries me is its inception.Open the doors..let me just have a glimpse towards what future holds for me,I feel jittery at times as What is the Stairway waiting for me,which height have I t reach.Just open the doors to the stairway to heaven.

What LIFE !!

2008-05-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

Its actually amazing how life takes many fold.Dreams and desires can get shattered in seconds and new dreams are transformed into various realities.Its just about holding nerves together and persuing your goals towards various ends.I have learnt so many things in these few months which I guess even an MBA degree wouldn't have provided me with so much exposure.What Relations mean I have realised that and how to manage and mantain that relation I have learnt them fast and its all about presenting your words Is what I have learnt .So well I keep on track and learn more in days to come.

PERFECTIONIST

2008-03-01T03:28:00.000-08:00

Perfection..I always dreamt of perfection but as days passed by I realised Perfection is just a illusion,there is nothing as such called perfect.To be more precise it is just a state of mind which tells you that something is appropriate at a particular period of time.I have started to be believe that everything around is unfolding and everything around is as it should be just my state is imperfect at that time in case if I find things not in its perfection place.Perfection is something that has no idea about right or wrong,good or bad and it is as impressive as it can be in its very own way..The Perfectionist way.Nobody's perfect,its just people take pride to be stuck by it that they are Perfect.Actually they are kind of Big fools on earth who don't know how things take shape.So try being Perfectionist in the actual way as it should be rather than what you think to be perfect.

Some Important Things In Life !!!!

2008-03-01T03:18:00.000-08:00

A mere calculation that I have made in order to rank things that are important in Life and its meanings are far beyond its words.It can be said as THREE THINGS IN LIFE.
Three things in Life once gone never comes back :
TIME WORDS OPPORTUNITIES
Three things in Life that are most valuable :
LOVE SELF CONFIDENCE FRIENDS
Three things in Life that are never certain :
DREAMS SUCCESS FORTUNE
Three things in Life that makes a person :
HARD WORK SINCERITY COMMITMENT
Three things in Life that can destroy a person :
ALCOHOL PRIDE ANGER
Three things in Life when lost hard to get it back :
RESPECT TRUST FRIENDSHIP

Someday..I ll get what I want

2008-01-14T20:20:00.000-08:00

Yeah..I ll someday get my aspiration,my desires,my longings right on place to where I dreamt off,Time flies so do I am..Days are passing by unnoticed giving me those nervous jitters,everything seems so far and unreachable but someday..

Yeah,someday I will catch and fold every moment to myself and I will have the last laugh of destiny.Destiny has been passing me those smiles and laughing at me from time to time its just saying me Catch me if you Can..But my gutt feeling says everything that happended or that will perhaps happen will be for your good only.Don't be short sighted as you(Its a fact),just keep your concentration going for the long run and think just not of few many years but of every year thats gonna come across in your life.

I am highly optimistic about that someday..It will be something that will give me immence satisfaction

Work Harder than Life..Lets See what Happens

2008-01-12T22:07:00.000-08:00

I really do believe in 'Just work hard give a damn about results',this is the mantra for me I have just been concentrating towards that end.On the contrary , results is what entire effort has been ladden and directed to..the ultimate bliss is towards what can be derived towards achievement that can be fostered by good drudgery.Its been hallowed world alltogether,where nothing can be really said about today let alone tomorrow.Rewards for fruits sowed by you is just not justified and at times its more than required.But just forget rewards its hard work that pays off.Everything is done and done for something good and much better than what has been happening so far,the turn of events usually leads towards much better results.If one is strong and passionate about everything one is doing then results are bound to be what you deserve.Just work,work and work harder than life and expect the unexpected miracle that will be giving you shivers and the biggest surprise of life.Just work man..give your best

My Aim,My Life & My World

2008-01-12T20:02:00.000-08:00

My aim is my life and indeed my entire world.It gives immence satisfaction to get what you desire ,but to get what required an individual must foretake several pains at various instances to reach his aim & indeed his life.Its not as easy as it seems,one can easily see a man with immence power and idealise him as what he aspires to be,but it takes much greater pain to search about the hurdles he had to overcomed to reach this utlimate destination.Just in the way its much easier to teach than preach,it requires immence determination to reach where one aspire to become.My Aim,My life and my world is all about that determination which I have to regularly heat at all instances of my life to reach the place I dreamt off.Miseries are part of life,its present at all times and at all places.Nobodys happy..they have some or the other problem always in life,but its time that they vstart living with it because thats what life is all about .With every happiness there is one more sadness to overcome the happiness.This is world all about..and its all about what my aim,my life and my world is all about

Its lonely journey towards eternity

2008-01-11T10:18:00.000-08:00

You tead every step with more rigour and pace,its faster and more aggressive but it leads towards never ending journey of life.Every moment it calls for that extra effort to superced the rest in pursuit of ultimate bliss.But the ultimate bliss is nothing just loneliness,drudgery which leads to futile waste of life towards unattainable nirvana.Its really strange to find oneself cornered in self-centred world where these is nothing but distruction.Its really very lonely at this place where thoughts run in tandom to conquer the world which leads to self ruination.It calls for great thoughts what is salvation and self satisfaction ?Where does one want to reach..What is that things after attaining of it,one is ready to give away the world.
Give it a thought,haunt your mind because its just loneliness that we all have to live by

Life's Diaries-Trying to cope with Trauma

2008-01-09T19:53:00.000-08:00

Such is life's diaries,suddenly everything can be really right and suddenly everything really wrong.Life can take you for a ride every moment and can make you disgusted..Why does everything have to happen with me only??Its been strange ride towards eternity.No one can beat a man up but himself,his desires are his biggest enemy who toils him till the last moment but give him nothing to cherish for.Strange you feel feckless all the time with that rush of adrenaline in your body never dies and torments you day in day out.

Year 2007-A thorn of Roses

2008-01-08T20:19:00.000-08:00

Year 2007..It really took a long time to leave me.Its been one of the most difficult year so far in my life.Its taken away from me everything and given me none,its a year of shattered dream,hard and torcherous even, the thought of it still gives me those shivers which is hard to go by me.Its been full of remorse and self dejection.Nothing really went right but all around made sure that everything went wrong.The flavour of this hard year still exist till the first week of 2008 gving me no respite.But I have worked hard the entire last quarter to make sure that all wrong doing of the previous three quarters minimises.But still it eludes me,it goes in my books as dark 2007 where i have fallen into trap and repented.But repentense really took long and is sure to give me pains for my entire life.The tear of this period still brings tears into my eyes and I having a feeling umbrage by myself.My life has fallen into a pit and I am giving my best to come out of it..May God showers his blessings to make me back to what I want me to be..

PRAGMATISM

2007-11-21T03:36:00.000-08:00

Pragmatism is a great virtue for all human beings.The earlier we accept it the better it is.
Idealism should be properly backed up by pragmatism.
Pragmatism leads to proper realisation of various traits
A pragmatic approach leads to a more purposeful persuit of various end
Be Pragmatic..

A more satisfied you...

Survival Through All Odd's

2007-11-06T09:07:00.000-08:00

Though Miserable my state
Thoughts still run as deep as ocean
Tempted to catch those dreams
Which I dreamt once young
Imagination runs wild
Still carries those spark
Running through my veins
Those power I can feel
Distructable
Flamable
I can burn them
Those darkness in my life
Still Survival
Is what i dream of
Poison maybe I but let me
Just SURVIVE...

Magic Eyes

2007-11-06T02:11:00.001-08:00

I recall those eyes that spoke to me thousand miles
With warmth and tears it told me all
those eyes,her eyes
Anxiety
Shyness
Soothing
It had all ,those eyes
It penetrated deep and made my sink into eyes
her eyes i still do feel those lovely eyes
Drifting me apart
Bruishing my heart
I wish i could see those eyes
Those beautiful eyes her eyes
Once more to blemish my soul
Again..Just once till I am alive
Those eyes her eyes
Talking eyes

Invisibility

2007-11-06T02:02:00.000-08:00

Conquest---
Invisibilty,Indivisibility and furious..
Track that time it waits longer
Can I buy time that period
Can't I buy Birth
Can't I buy Death
Its invisible..longivity isn there
Can I buy those moments of rejoice
TIME..
Candle burns so does darkness
Time burns so does human
With TIME it fades..
Its Invisible but keep lookin at it..
It waits for no man..
Fight with it till last blood
TIME fades away so do I am

Looking For Reason

2007-11-06T01:50:00.000-08:00

Looking for reason for a remorseful world with malice in my heart
A direction to lead myself ,a reason to befriend me in troubles
With darkness glooming all around
No directions to absorb my thoughts
Reason for every direction
Thoughts running wild just like the ocean
Forests haunting me
Shadow borrowing my emotions
Preventing me from rejuvination
Let me find my destiny
Let me be drunk with flavours of destiny
A reason for it must exist